What lays beneath

Dont watch if you are sciddish, because after I had screamed out laud we saw what had been giving me so much pain the last weeks.
My tendon is open so my life outside of the hospital might be very short since I have a meeting with the surgeon tomorrow.

I really hope that the nurse that will go there with me will be good enough to talk them into letting me stay at home.

I wont handle another trip to the hospital...  I am done.
I have never been this close to get a real outburst, I have been holding it in my whole adult life but the surgeons are treating me so bad that I feel the rage boiling when they talk over my head and treats me like I am retarded...

So wish me luck...