That evil lamp in the sky

I just hope that they understand how sick I get by heat and sun this year so I can stay at home ....  The summer two years ago it was the worst summer heatwise since the -70. I had been out since late may and in june I started to fall asleep everywere (Kinda like I do now)  I got sicker and sicker so I begged my doctor to admit me to the hospital...  I got worse and worse and finally, in the beginning of july I got admitted.
I had a fan but that was it...  They needed the AC's for the rooms that got the sun right into the rooms.
I could not go to the toilet without getting a heatstroke, and with that I got panicattacks so I just sat infront of the fan, falling asleep and not being able to move because then I got overheated...
Last summer I was admitted already so I got to be very popular because I had the coolest room on the floor.

In the fall I wanted to keep it, I was still getting hot...  So I slept with the windows open and everyone was suddenly cold. I brought in some patient cardigans for the staff to wear..... I was actually doing that because they did'nt want to be in my right and talk to me because it was chilly. But I loved the temperature because it was so great to feel anything else then hot and sticky.

I lost all the visits from the hospital staff because it was chilly and I did cry.

If I did'nt have any care of my health then I would take a blanket and lay in the sun as soon as the ground is dry....  Might be a great way to get it all over with....  They are always telling me that I need more sun and how lovely it is to be outside, laying in the sun and sometimes even fall asleep on the grass...
So if I did the normal thing then they have to take me serious when they come in with me with a heatstroke that actually has made me unconsious....  That should make them understand the fan/AC need that I have becose it gets worse and worse every year....  So I dont know if I can get any help until I get admitted again because of rotting....

I have already started to get blisters all over...  Mostly under the feet...