The gut punch and how to try to recover

Yesterday I got redressed as usual at my HC (Health clinic)  and I got to find out what my current albuminelevel is. I felt my inside grow cold when I saw a number that I have'nt seen since they removed most of the tissue on my lower legs three years ago.

22.....

Lowest acceptable is 38-40. If I dont get my level up and get an AC before it gets really hot I will most likely rot and get admitted to the hospital again.
So I bought a claypot, the one were you put it in water until completly soaked and then you put the meats and veggies in and let it be in the oven as long as the meat needs.
The result is meat, chicken anything, just falls of the bones and it is delish.

I will also eat protein pudding and Islandic yoghurt,  100 grams contains 10 mg of protein and that is in some cases even more protein then certain meats.

So...  Now I am in for a fight.

My right leg is looking much better, just about all the necrotic tissue is gone and now we are just hoping that it will grow some skin or protection on the left leg were I have plenty of dead tissue right above nervclusters...  It hurts so much that I scream right out when they try to remove the dead tissue. Here is the latest pictures and if you are going to eat, dont watch them and if you just ate and are sensitive for gore then, dont look.

I truly hope that I can raise my levels because I dont know if I can go through another hospital stay...  I am already broken,  if they put me back in that inviroment they better keep me in a coma until I am getting released.

I have spent more then a three quarters of the last three years in hospital. I get released Just before I am wound free and with good bloodwork so instantly when I get home I usually take a turn for the worst.
This time when I got released I had told my doctor that I felt that I was going to get a backlash. I felt it.
She said that this time she had to be the bad guy and send me home.

I got worse pretty soon after comming home....

So keep your fingers crossed that I will be able to eat enough meat and other proteins so I can raise my levels and be able to stay home.


I will write you later

At home for the time being Nasty pictures of my legs

In November 2015 I was released from the hospital even though I begged my doctor to stay since I felt that I was about to get a backlash.
She told me that I was only getting better and that I could not stay there forever.

I have never wanted to stay there forever but I wanted to be healthy when I got back home.

I was'nt.

I celibrated Yule and christmas with my mom and sister, then I got to be at home for my Birthday. I have not been at home for that in 3 years.

My cats was really happy to see me and I was thrilled to meet them and cuddle.

The backlash came with a vengage.... I was admitted for 3 days and they "cleaned out" the wounds the night I got admitted..  I thought that if they were going to clean out the wounds that they would remove the pseudomonas so that all the green layers would be removed and I could leave with clean wounds.
But no.
The wounds was made larger and deeper.

And now I am redressing my legs three times a week at my health clinic.
I was there today and since monday the wounds are containing more dead and infected tissue so they sat with a scissor clipping away the dead tissue, it looked like wormpoo...

The pictures are from the hospital and when the wounds grew here at home.

I bet that they will send me to the hospital again because this is going to take some real surgery...  I hate it but I love my pets and I want as much time with them as possible.

I could deny care and stay at home wich would lead to my kidneys failing, after that the liver will fail because of all the shit in my blood and when I then get bloodpoisening it will take at the most two weeks before I dont wake up again.

It is an option but I am to stubborn to give up especially as they have come to the conclusion that the hell I am living come from the surgery -09 and that someone scratched themself and stuck their hands back in to my stomach.

I would die a happy woman if they got fired, reprimanded anything that prove that I have been right all along.

I am also, as I am at home, fighting with social services to get assistance with food money....  I am constantly stressed and I get anxiety attacks at least four times a day... Mostly more.

Send healing thoughts //Love Veronica